Being suicidal sometimes comes from a lack of hope in life. That stems from betrayal, facing hardship, or even lack of direction in life.
That’s exactly what Maureen Waititu went through, while she was still married to Frankie. Without going into detail, the social media influencer detailed how she was going through a lot but she still had to fake a smile.
Her journey has been one of a kind. She has beaten online bullies, overcame personal battles, and above all, an ugly breakup that left her solely responsible for two young kids.
This was me 370 days ago. See that smile? That smile was covering severe sadness and depression, infact the following day I attempted suicide for the second and last time ever!
One year later, I’ve beat depression, got off depression medication, fought several silent battles and WON, fought off cyber bullying and saw my life change right in front of my eyes as I achieved things I never even imagined would be possible.
However, looking back to this period, I remember I was driving back from Murang’a and I heard my baby Kai who was only a year few months old say ‘mama’ for the first time. Lexi on the other hand was days to turning 4 years old-this child is an angel I tell you. He saved my life over and over again and the thought of leaving my precious boys allowed me to snap out of my suicidal state- and fight for my two boys and myself even though I felt like my world was coming to an end, weh! Never again.
It wasn’t easy, some days were dark, some hopeful. I took the healing journey extremely SERIOUSLY AND WITHOUT SHAME, I took my medication and saw my psychiatrist religiously and without fail. But guess what? My faith and trust in God, my determination to heal, self education, a good support system and keeping an open mind accelerated my healing. I never thought that I’d say this but I have seen the other side of HEALING AND IT’S BEAUTIFUL!
For anyone feeling lost and broken, trust me when I tell you this, better days are always ahead. Just DON’T GIVE UP ON YOURSELF and accept help where it’s offered. Pray pray pray! God is always listening and He is aware of our pain and in Faith, He always comes through.
“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for peace and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.”
Also remember the story of Job?
So that there ☝🏾was a face hiding a lot of pain, but it’s all gone now! I hope this encourages someone.
Have you gone through bouts of attempted suicide? How did you overcome it? Let us know!